In a combined effort with other aviation bloggers, I promised a post that ties in with the holiday some people will be celebrating today. Not the New Year's celebration, but the other holiday. The one with hearts instead of dragons.
There's a wide societal expectation that your romantic life will follow a certain pattern. You'll date a few people who turn out to be inappropriate, or just not long term prospects for you. You then get more serious and fall in love with Mr. or Miss. Right. There's a proposal, an acceptance, engagement, wedding plans and then happily ever after. It's considered polite conversation with near strangers to ask if they are married. And if you don't seem to be on that path, there are confused questions.
Friends try to set you up. And you think you want that, so you accept and thank them, then never call the number, or call but accept flimsy excuses, and fail to follow up if they don't call back. You go through bursts where you rededicate yourself to believing that this really is something you want. You carefully craft a personal ad. You are thrilled but also terrified when you get a response from someone who seems right. You're not sure if you're dreading the date itself--because there have been some terrible ones, and they can be so humiliating--or the inevitable rejection. You gloss over the reason for your previous break ups, trying to make yourself look as good as possible without lying. You try to make the best impression you can, which might mean not presenting your real self. You check your e-mail and your phone for messages, hoping to hear back. Sometimes they schedule another date. You try to be the person they want, and argue to yourself that it is your real self, just the best sides of it, but deep down you wonder if 'maybe there's someone out there who wants me for me, all of me.'
You plan self-improvement of some kind, to make yourself more appealing, but find yourself shirking or dreading sessions because they are a reminder of being unwanted, and is the expense worth the marginal improvement? You catch yourself avoiding friends who are in relationships, because their casual references remind you of what you're supposed to have. You cut yourself off from the people who could help you get what you think you want.
Maybe you're with someone, but it's not very serious. There are no long term prospects and your friends keep asking if you're still with that loser. Maybe you're freelancing, good friends with a enough people whom you can rely on for a booty call or a fling when you're that way inclined. Maybe you've discovered that your life is pretty comfortable with your feet on the ground, avoiding any romantic entanglements. How does one tell whether passing doubts or dissatisfaction is because you aren't with the partner you want, or you aren't with the partner society has taught you and continues to assume is Right? Have you 'settled' or is this what you want? Even when you're totally comfortable right now, external and internal expectations whisper messages of guilt and failure and concern for your future if you haven't succumbed to traditional marriage before you lose your marketability.
This post does not carry the non-aviation tag, because it's really about aviation. The airline job is the mythical Mr. Right for the commercial pilot. Personnel ads and résumés are just like personal ads. Interviews are as awkward and potentially humiliating as first dates. Contract flying is exciting and varied, but does sometimes leave you without a date when there are bills to be paid. You can end up with the wrong one, in a dangerous relationship, but not have the resources to leave, or the self-esteem to know you can do better. The metaphor follows all the way through, including tearful breakups and those confusing relationships where you're not really sure who dumped whom and you're tempted to go over and beg them to take you back. Calling your ex to get your stuff back and talking to your replacement, who has been told lies about you. Yep, it's all there. The only upside is that you probably won't get dumped if your current employer discovers you are actively looking for the next one. You probably won't get promoted either, though. And many who think they have achieved happily ever after discover that the one they have committed thirty years to has gambled away the pension money.
If you're flying helicopters instead of fixed wing, things get more complicated, especially as many people don't become helicopter pilots until years of believing their destiny is in fixed wing. Friends and family who don't know helicopters don't have a clue what they do anyway or what your prospects might be, because there isn't a widely respected stereotype of a successful rotary wing pilot. You might not live in an area where a stable airline job is an option at all on a helicopter. There's a certain freedom there, because expectations are different, but the same angst over career progress. You're forced to define your own success.
Whichever side of the airport you're working, long to be working, or have decided you really don't need the headaches from, I wish you a happy and prosperous Year of the Tiger. Gung Hay Fat Choy.
Excellent post. Please have a very very happy whichever holiday you're celebrating... or not.. and know that we, your loyal and dedicated readers, love you ever so much.
You are the long lost sister who writes occasionally to tell us of wondrous things and exotic places. We live an itinerant life vicariously through your posts and we enjoy every minute of it. We celebrate every success and mourn every misstep. Thanks so much for the time and effort that you spend writing for us. It is truly appreciated by each of us.
And please, we ask singly and in unison won't you be our Valentine Aviatrix?
I saw my brother struggle for many years trying and forcing himself to be a fixed wing pilot, when all along, we all knew that he was just destined to be a helicopter pilot. Once he accepted it, it was a relief for all of us.
He has been very, very lucky in that he has found the perfect job, where he is a better person every day and has excelled at his job. His employer is amazing and very good to him. We´re all very happy for his situation.
Just as in love, it´s hard to find that perfect job, but it´s out there. For each and everyone of us. I guess I´m just a hopeless romantic, but that´s what I believe.
I love your posts...week after week they are a joy to read.
I emphatically agree with you. Looking for a job (or an employee) and looking for a partner in life are very similar.
Importantly, in both cases we should remember not to put too much stock in what Hollywood teaches us.
I have my own dramatic Bach and Beethoven music, and don't expect it to play out of the sky when I go to a job interview.
~Brilliant! I think that jinksto said it perfectly so may I second most emphatically her/his sentiments! LSP
This all makes huge sense and I think is even backed up by scientific research saying the two things that upset our lives most and cause a lot of stress are work- and relationship-related changes.
The comparison between jobs and relationships is not only appropriate because many tend to spend more hours of their time awake seeing their boss and co-workers than with their partner. It's also because the analogy of asking the question of whether you are a dumper or a dumpee is very valid when quitting a job...
Sweetie, that boring airline in the polyester suit is never going to marry someone with green hair!
I'm sure your post is as good as others say, but I really have no idea what you're talking about. Both my love life and my job life followed a very simple pattern that differs greatly from your description.
Happy Valentine's Day. Your fame shines bright.
jinksto said it first and said it best. I second those emotions, green hair and all...
You are so true... Thanks, dear Aviatrix and have a happy valentines day and a succesful start into a happy and prosperous year of the tiger!
Makes sense: it's a lot more fun enjoying the life you're living than worrying about the one you think you should be living.
And everyone has an alternative "should be" life lurking in the shadows, even (I'm sure) happily married airline pilots.
Happy Valentine's Day!
re: And everyone has an alternative "should be" life lurking in the shadows, even (I'm sure) happily married airline pilots."
Yah - shoulda, coulda, woulda been an engineering test pilot, or an air demonstration aerobatics pilot, or an aviation writer getting paid to try every new aircraft as it comes along and write about it... But hey - straight and level on otto-peelot for 10 hours non-stop pays the bills.
Had a passenger leave our airplane before we push back out of ONT because his fiance called him on the phone while he was on the airplane and said she didn't want to marry him. Bummer Valentine!
@FlyCRJ: If only people could remember to turn off their firetruckin' mobiles while on the plane... It would not only help preventing possible EMI issues, but also make them happier.
yes, I swing both ways now don't I?
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